Maybe It's Time to Give Up...

Sometimes i wonder..why us human won't give up easily especially when it comes to relationship matter. i guess that's our weakness, or should i say strength?
It's never easy to build a relationship from scratch, moreover if it is to bond two strangers together. Yet, human did it. Two people who are so different and so far apart can meet and bond.

Strange? Yes. We can cry, laugh, talk, share and love each other so much until each other presence is important to us. When this relationship comes to an end, it breaks our heart to pieces. We will recover from this pain although it takes time, just like any other wound, and this wound will surely leave a scar.

Human is unique, in this case, women especially because we remember everything that happens whether we like it or not. (yes im a laydeh)

And the consequences, we cry more than our counter parts named "men".
Anything matters to women, well at least this minuscule things means a lot to me....

However, recently i have been thinking. Ok. Maybe i should rephrase that. I did not started thinking recently. What i meant is thinking about this. Women and Men stuff.

I'm an emotional person. My mood changes faster than you switching channels. I think a lot, sometimes too much perhaps, and people may find me fierce. (i have bushy eyebrows, thank you)

The point is, yes there is a point, i have been thinking a lot about letting go.
It hurts, even just thinking about it. But neither do i think i should continue with it.

I am not happy like before. Have i change? Or have he change? Or was it my expectation that is changing?

I never like being alone too long because i will start thinking. and i do not like the lonely feeling at all. i think no one does. The feeling of doing everything by myself. Eat alone. Walk alone. Go wherever alone. Do whatever alone.

I used to think that this will change when i found my other parts. How wrong was i. In fact, i feel lonelier than i have ever felt before. Even though he is with me, i still feel lonely. That isn't right.

All this things have been bothering me. I am tired of crying myself to sleep. Tired of thinking all this. Maybe it is really time to give up.